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deerington | staggr
STAGGR
ABOUT ME
Luna Lovegood
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Assistant @ The Menagerie
General Vet for Magical Animals owned by Sleepers
“Life is infinitely stranger than anything which the mind of man could invent.”
Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them - Newt Scamander
FULL NAME
18
AGE
13th February 1981
BIRTHDAY
She/Her
PRONOUNS
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RELATIONSHIP STATUS
Boys named Peter Graham.
INTERESTED IN
410 Prospero Townhouses
ADDRESS
12th Year Student @ Deerington High SchoolAssistant @ The Menagerie
General Vet for Magical Animals owned by Sleepers
OCCUPATION
“Life is infinitely stranger than anything which the mind of man could invent.”
FAVORITE QUOTE
I quite like anything, really.
FAVORITE MUSICIANS
The QuibblerFantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them - Newt Scamander
FAVORITE BOOKS
So far, I have enjoyed the dinosaur movies the most.
FAVORITE MOVIES/TV SHOWS
EXPERIENCE
Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry (1992 - present)
Dumbledore's Army: Acting Co-Leader (1997 - present)
Dumbledore's Army: Member (1995-6, 1997 - present)
N/A
English
Irish Gaelic
Some Latin
Duellist
Charms Magic
Defensive Magic
Creative
EDUCATION
Dumbledore's Army: Acting Co-Leader (1997 - present)
Dumbledore's Army: Member (1995-6, 1997 - present)
TRAINING
N/A
PAST JOB EXPERIENCE
English
Irish Gaelic
Some Latin
LANGUAGES
Duellist
Charms Magic
Defensive Magic
Creative
ADDITIONAL TALENTS
CONTACT ME
un: jackk
i can show you!!
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But what are they, exactly?
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they're plays that people record on film
and then put special effects and stuff in
its a story that you watch on a TV or a laptop or a phone
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[ She... doesn't know what a laptop or a TV is either. Sorry, Jack. ]
What is special effects? How does one make an effect special? Is it like some kind of charm?
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special effects is like
well, its easier to show you
like if you want to show a scene of a spaceship flying through space
but you dont have a spaceship and you can't go into space
they use technology to make it look like there's a spaceship flying through space, with computers and stuff
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How curious! So it's all just pretend? They're just doing them to make it look real? I didn't know what computers and stuff are for, really. But that sounds very clever.
Text: UN - IceCream
At my trial.
You asked me "What changed?"
I am willing to speak with you here, should you still wish that answer.
Whether you trust that answer is up to you.
You can verify with Ruby that I haven't attacked her since coming back.
But outside of that, neither you nor many others have reason to trust my words.
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I certainly don't have any reason to trust you, and I will be checking in with Ruby again. I've already told her we've spoken.
But I would like to hear what you have to say.
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You saw the footage at the trial, I assume.
The battle on top of a battleship between a man in white, Ruby and myself with monsters around?
That man was Roman Torchwick, the single most important person in my life.
I loved him, as much as you can love someone you aren't in love with, and he loved and cared for me in a world that could have given two shits about either of us.
He was my world, and I would have lived for him, died for him, killed for him, done whatever he wanted.
And I will never regret who I have chosen to love.
He was a crook, a swindler and a bastard, but he was also my crook, swindler and bastard and I was his right hand girl.
Before him, I had nothing but a wretched life alone.
After Ruby knocked me off that plane, leaving me to die from the fall, and he died but I survived? I had nothing but pain.
For two years, I did everything I could to hunt down the two people I held responsible.
Ruby for getting him killed by separating us, and not having the decency to finish the job with me.
Cinder Fall, because she was the one who got us wrapped up in that whole war.
I eventually teamed up with Cinder as an alliance because she's much more powerful than I am.
And she wanted Ruby dead too.
That was where I was when I came here. In pain. Hating myself. Hating Ruby. Hating Cinder. Hating Remnant.
I wanted to kill her, and finally die in peace the way I felt I should have two years ago.
I share all this because it's been aired like my dirty laundry so why hide it any longer?
And the context will help you understand what happened to me.
You can't know what changed if you don't know where it began.
All of the above?
You can confirm with Ruby.
She'll disagree on a few particulars, but for the most part? We agree.
It was war. People die in war. We weren't on the right side of the war, but that never mattered.
I was on Roman's side in those days. I will always be Roman's to an extent even with him dead.
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It hurts in a way because.... this is how she feels about Peter. Two lonely souls finding some peace with one another. It's something she can empathise with. Peter has become that other part of her, or some extension of herself. Something she cherishes, believes in and trusts whole-heartedly.
But killing for him? Doing whatever he wanted? That's where they're different, she and Neo. These are things that seem... wrong. Twisted. That doesn't seem like what love should be. But Neo's already said she doesn't regret how she's chosen to love, and Luna can't argue with that. ]
If it's war, then you can't blame Ruby for what happened to Roman.
You're right, people die in war all of time. I understand that only too well. And you weren't on the right side of it. You picked the side that would allow the Grimm to destroy everything? And look where it got you, the Grimm killed Roman. Not Ruby. The side you went with got him killed.
You picked your side and lost. That's the cost of getting involved. Even the most important people to you can be lost. That isn't on Ruby. Perhaps more on Cinder for dragging you both into this.
There is more to you than the life you created to Roman. And I'm sure the last thing he'd want would be you to become nothing without him and follow him him blindly even in death. To stick to the wrong side despite it costing his life.
And if he did, then Roman's side is a bad one to be on, too.
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That's good in principle, the idea that we're all noble about war and don't blame each other.
Reality is rarely that kind, and emotions blind us to forgiveness.
That was my last two years, and we'll leave that at that.
[She wasn't going to discuss the matter of Roman further, she figured. It would only get her mad, and that was something that she was trying very hard not to be about this and a lot of other things. It still wasn't easy. There were still nights that, if she was honest, she wanted to burn Ruby and Cinder in effigy. There were just a lot fewer of those nights than there'd been before.]
So, that is the fact of where I was when I arrived.
But you asked me what changed, and now that you know where I was, fair or foul, this is what changed.
Ruby.
I 'get' why a lot of you are mad at me about what happened, because I genuinely understand now why we lost to that girl.
She is probably one of the most genuinely "Good" people I've ever met in my life, Luna.
When I tried to kill her the very day I showed up, she tried to make peace afterwards and to find a way to help me.
She took responsibility for her part in the conflict, and we spoke on several occasions about it, even while I was still actively trying.
And it was Ruby who told me, on the day that I thought Roman and myself might be nothing more than a figment of some girl's imagination that she believed in Roman.
Ruby might be afraid of me, but she actually cares about me.
I'm pretty sure she cared about Roman, and I know she cares about Emerald.
And believe me when I say that neither Emerald nor I have earned much of her caring or forgiveness.
So, the first part of what changed things is Ruby.
Months, and months of that idiot refusing to give up on me started wearing me down.
Saving my life, defending Roman's memory, apologizing for what happened, not throwing me under the bus, wishing I didn't get executed.
There's other things that changed.
I've made friends in this place, who care about both of us.
I've started falling in love with someone, which is one thing to live for that isn't Roman.
I've realized that Roman and I were on the wrong side of the war, even if I don't fault him or think less of him for his choice.
But it started with Ruby.
And to be clear: I was ready to forgive her when I ended up killing her.
I own that I did it, because for years I wanted to, and I didn't do enough to avoid slipping away.
But it wasn't my active intention to do it.
I went crazy with some crap people called "Despair." Swirly eyes and all.
I personally don't think it's an excuse, but it will clear up that I don't plan to ever do it again.
At least, not as long as I'm in my right mind.
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[ Then again, she takes what Neo says with a pinch of salt. She doesn't know her, after all -- and there's plenty chance she could be simply spinning some sweet words of change and forgiveness. Luna maybe be optimistic in her ways, but she isn't blindly naive. Ruby had advised caution, and Luna believes in Ruby to follow that. ]
Ruby is forgiving, and she does honestly see the best in people, and wants them to become their best selves. She never stops trying. I believe that she's done nothing but to try and help you and achieve some kind of resolution between the two of you. That I can believe.
But I still don't trust you. Or what your thoughts and true intentions are from Ruby's actions on you. Not at this moment in time.
No, it's not an excuse. Deerington makes us do terrible things. Sometimes it picks at parts of us we try to lock away. [ It wouldn't be out of the question to think perhaps deep down some part of Neo did still want this. She got what she wanted. Old hurts never truly go away. ] Your actions were both your own and not your own. The questions is what you plan on doing moving on from this, and know that others will be watching.
Ruby's made a lot of friends here, I know that much. And they won't be quick to forgive like Ruby, nor will they forget.
But I suppose only time will tell.
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I have never been forgiving by nature, and it isn't easy to start.
But it does teach me to expect that others would not forgive me.
Her family, for one, I expect no forgiveness from, or to work for every scrap.
Her friends too, in some cases.
I am fine with you not trusting me.
It's completely reasonable, but I'm also grateful you're not openly hostile.
I don't want to start physical fights over this.
Is there anything else you wish to know today?
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But I appreciate your understanding of that, and the fact you realise what's ahead.
I'm very tired of fighting. But make no mistake, that doesn't mean I won't hesitate to if I have to. And believe me when I say, you don't want to fight with me.
[ She's unassuming, but she's more than capable. ]
I suppose I'd like to ask what you plan to do moving forward. Have you given that any thought since you returned from the dead?
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Physical training, friends to check up on
And a home to begin tending to.
I suppose you could say I'm trying to learn how to live, instead of exist
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I hope for your sake you do keep these things up.
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I think I'll let this wrap for the moment.
With good luck we won't speak in October, because it'll be quiet for me.
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Mm. Here's hoping.
Voice UN: trienemybest - before Fern dies
[He's not sure how MUCH she knows and he needs to be careful about this instead of potentially making it worse than it already is.]
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[ There's a pause. She'd never told Jon the more... precise details when he'd contacted her to ask about her encounter with the Grass Demon. Nor about a link between him and Fern. She doesn't trust the man, certainly not with things about Fern.
Luna's face pales in realisation: oh, no. ]
He worked it out, didn't he? He asked about the demon. I never told him about the link to Fern. He... worked it out— what's going on, Varian?
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He saw the... demon a while back. When he and Fern got into a fight. He told me about it and I've been trying to figure out what it was about since then. It trapped Ruby in the Great Sleep, and Glitch caught on pretty fast too. We were trying to gather information- that's why Jon came to you. Ruby mentioned you'd experienced something similar, too.
[When will he learn not to meddle? Jesus.]
We... we were trying to help him. We thought it was hurting him.
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[ Trying to help. They thought Phthalo was hurting him. Luna puts her head in her hands, eyes closing for a long moment. The question is if she trusts Varian with it.
Her expression grows grim, eyes sombre. She's torn. But now she's incredibly worried. How have they tried to help? ]
Varian, what have you done?
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[And now he's realising he made a VERY wrong call. Not for the first time in his life, likely not for the last. But this is hurting someone he loves and he wishes he could undo it. But he can't do that alone.]
We went into the Great Sleep and trapped the demon. We didn't kill it. But we thought maybe cutting it off from Fern might... I don't know, help him? But he's been getting worse, not better. He's been seeing things that aren't there- confusing me and Glitch for other people.
[He pinches the bridge of his nose, heaving out a sigh.]
I think we messed something up really badly.
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Well how else would someone be if you decided to trap a part of them on another plane? You're not meant to be in there that long!
[ Maybe she's said too much already, but she's both horrified and angered that they'd try something like that. They didn't know, though. But she's still can't believe it. And if half of Fern's stuck there, no wonder he's slowly becoming unstable. ]
The demon isn't something that's adjacent to Fern. It's... it's something so much more than that.
[ She... she has to fix this. She has to put this right. ]
Where did you trap him? Where in the Great Sleep?
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I didn't know it was a part of him. I thought it was something hurting him. Something this place put inside him. Because that's the sort of thing that happens here, Luna. I was trying to help him and I messed up.
[Again. It's frustrating that she knows more than he does about this. How does she know? He doesn't understand. Not even Fern knows. ]
Near by the junkyard, I think. There were a lot of wrecked cars. Jon trapped it in a web of memories.
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And yet for all the strangeness in the worlds, you didn't think perhaps it was just something from home? You didn't think to even go and ask him? [ Ooo is rather out there in terms of strangeness. But that's how she found out about what the demon in Fern is. She asked. ] Instead you've gone and messed with something you had no right to. Jon poking at him should have been a big enough sign to leave him well alone.
[ If there were any trust in Jon, it's gone now. Of course, Luna has been poking at demons in other people but it's been done with research, not to mention a lot more delicacy.
She takes a moment, tries to calm herself down. She has to do something about this. ]
Alright. [ She needs help, she needs to call K. ] I'm... I'm going to try and put this right. I'm going to free the demon, try to clean up this mess before it's too late.
[ How much worse will it get for Fern? She'll find out soon enough. ]
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[Though he has some demon-fuelled prejudice since realising one is pulling strings against his friend back home. There's a slight crack in his resolve, a flicker of annoyance in his tone. He's not great at keeping his temper and he's stressed out about Fern- he might not have a leg to stand on here, but the sully on Jon's character is patently unfair.]
Jon was trying to help, we all were. None of this was done maliciously. Jon isn't out to attack anyone. I don't know where anyone has the idea that he is.
[It seems pointless vitriol aimed at someone who's done nothing wrong. Yes, Jon might not be normal but who out of them was at this point? Still, what was important was helping Fern. He can't lose sight of that.]
If you think that'll work, good. Great.
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Well maybe Fern chose not to know about it. He could have put it away in his mental vault. [ Her voice is short with him, words sharply enunciated. The mention of demons in one's head is a... sore subject for her, considering everything she's dealing with with Peter. ] I would suggest you pick your words very carefully, Varian. I know rather well about dealing with people with demons in their head, and believe me I don't suggest dealing with it more appropriately than what you've chosen to do lightly.
[ She's worked hard to help Peter. She doesn't offer talking to Fern to try and work out his own demon like it's the easiest thing in the world to do. It's a difficult path, and he's being quite flippant about it. Yes, let's just lock the demon away instead of trying to deal with it more peacefully, that'll work out rather well, won't it? ]
Jon went poking into Fern's head with as much delicacy as a toddler, persisting even when Fern told him to stop. And look how well his "helping" went there, look how well it's "helping" now.
[ Amateur hour. ]
It's the only thing I can think of to try and resolve this whole mess. [ She really hopes she has time. ] For Fern's sake, you best hope this works.
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If he put it in his mental vault, then he put it there for a reason. Talking to him about it wouldn't help him, he'd hate that, it would just freak people out more.
[He knows, oh he knows his distrust of demons is coloured by what's happening back home. He knows without this knowledge he'd be so much more reasonable about it all. But all he can think of his how Cassandra is actively destroying her own life- and how that's being piloted by a demon who wants... what? He doesn't know, but it can't be good. ]
I didn't do anything lightly. I didn't just skip off into the Great Sleep thinking "oh ho, this'll be a jape!" I saw my friend was hurting and I did what I could to help him. And Jon paid his dues for what he did to Fern, he doesn't need to pay any more. He wasn't comfortable with this, either, I dragged him into it.
[He's not about to let Jon take the fall for his own mistakes. He sucks in a breath, pinching the bridge of his nose. He wants to be spiteful and petty and tell her not to bother. That he obviously came to the wrong person and he'll figure this out himself. But that won't help Fern- so he's just going to have to swallow his pride.]
Thank you. [That leaves a bad taste in his mouth, but needs must.] Despite what you think, all I want is for him to be safe. I made a mistake and I acknowledge that. I don't want him to hurt.
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Of course, and it could simply be avoiding something difficult about himself.
[ She cares about Fern deeply, he's her friend. But even she knows he's not great at confronting his problems. He really is a typical teenage boy. ]
Well, thank you very much for 'your help', Varian. [ Said coldly. Of course she's being sarcastic. She's stressed enough as it is with Deerington being as it is in October. Her tattoo's starting to ache. She has to take a moment to herself because arguing with Varian isn't going to help matter right now.
She needs to act, and fast. She needs to call K. And... maybe it might be best if she asks Paimon for help. ]
I have no idea how the others feel about this, about letting him out, but I don't care. I'm doing it anyway. [ She hopes Varian doesn't go blabbing. ] There is a way to deal with this, but this wasn't the way.
[ There's little else for her to say. With that, she shuts off the feed. ]
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